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Tuesday, January 17, 2017
January 17, 2017
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Today is the 18th. 12:23 something AM, past that, as I can remember.
I should have blogged this on the 12th. But those days of delays have also proven the strength of the truth of the dream.
There were lots of confirmation which came on the day after the dream, the morning after, and the succeeding days.
Okay, so here's the dream.
I was sooo excited and happy I wasn't able to contain it. I could not contain it. I told someone about it, I hope its effect didn't change in my life.
When I woke up, I felt I received it in real life, that it's there, that I have it already when it was given in the dream, and I felt soooooo high like I could accomplish anything! Anything and whatever, whatever I put my hands to at all!!
In my dream I received a golden orb, it was a little more the size of the fist, something you could hold with your hand, but it's glow is brighter, about 150% of it's diameter.
In my my dream I received it, it was given, it was a provision God has given, the one the prophets and prophetess of today's time were talking about. They were talking about this season, this season of abundance and acceleration and help and destiny in 2017, in 2016. Preachers and prophets/prophetess like Lana Vawser, Dough Addison, Chuck Pierce, Jo Ellens Stevens, the Woman of Impact Ministries, etc., and the likes were talking about. (Another story of how I came to "follow them one by one and little by little in another post).
And when I received it, I flew up up in the sky, so so high I couldn't stop! It almost felt like I am a rocket being thrown and pushed through the air, even if I moderated or thinking of moderating my flight, it was rushing, it was rushing so so high I couldn't stop, like a force is pushing me upwards and taking me upwards higher. Higher than I have ever flew, seen or been to, or experienced. In my dreams before, in the past, I would fly but only to the height that I could or would want to, according to my control. This time, of all my dreams about flying in my life, this was the one where I could feel an uncontrollable force and energy pushing me upwards and taking me higher, I couldn't stop, I felt like a rocket being launched to the air to the moon, and it just keeps going, I couldn't control it, I couldn't moderate it. It was so high, no one has been there before. It took me places no one has ever been. Nobody has ever seen. Nobody has access to is was allowed to, or has been given provision to except to those, to the ones who have received those provision of orbs from God. That's what I understood in my dream. There were people who are able to fly there as well had been there or will be there or can or could go back and forth but those where the people who have been given or who also received the provision God has given to the people he promised for the season of increase, release, and abundance of dreams to happen that were held in the past. (Refer to the prophets' prophesies, I mentioned above).
I was in great awe, so so high about it. I felt so happy. I was toggling along flying here to there and going to places no one has ever been, it was such a wonderful feeling. You are at the edge of the atmosphere and no one has seen those places before, places of wonder and "things to happen." I don't know what that means but that's what I understood in my dream.
But in my dream, I also saw my partner. It's a current relationship I should be no longer attached with in the future and in this season. A partner I prayed I could be released from, to Jesus, and in 2016 I prayed so much about it, much has been a mistake and I have prayedand talked to and asked God for freedom, release, and to no longer be in bondage and to freely do things I should do and topartner with Him, God, in the season and for the rest of my life.It was timely that the ministers and prophets were talking about it, where I was making up my mind, where I made up my mind to make things happen already and one was when Lana Vawser was mentioning "This is your next Nexus Point" in one of her prophesies, where you are "made up" or have made up your mind and opportunities or God's provision is showing up or are here ready for you to receive it. Nexus Point. Wow, what a beautiful word prophesy and declaration.
But when I saw my partner, because he was there, in respect to him, I tried to take him where I could fly, I tried to take him to fly with me, to fly to the air, to places I've been to, in my flight. But as soon I was trying to, as I grabbed his hand, I could not fly!!! I could no longer fly! I was like, "how---, why can't I fly again when I have been able to before, how can I do this---" I tried but I couldn't take him anywhere, I tried to control my dream in my thoughts that I could fly and take him but I couldn't, it's just in my imagination. So I wasn't.
Part of the dream was, before that, was I could see the blue seas, and the blue green oceans while I am in the air. And I went down because my baby girl wanted to take a swim in the water. She was there and while she was trying to swim and enjoying the water (travel), there was a shark at the other end of a resort lagoon's cottage (at the edge of this lagoon was a resort or big cemented cottage with roofs from that of a hut, those you see in resorts), and the shark swam towards my baby girl and I went down to get her and warn her, the shark could walk not only swim, and it tried to get what I was holding, a phone or something, and it got bitten, the phone was bitten, it had a scratch on the edge. But we were able to climb through the big cemented cottage was able to carry my babygirl with me, only the phone got a scratch from the shark's bite. It seemed to have ran away after that, don't know where it's going or heading, back to the other side of the cottage.
And that was it. That was my dream.
When I woke up I could feel the force within me, feel like I could accomplish anything and that I am soaring high and I could finally do, could do it, finally! And I was doing things, I realized, that I haven't done before, in years, things that got held back in years, I was able to do in 12 days since January. As I checked my drawings, I made 4, and I was not able to make or finish anything at all before that, since 6 years! Wow, Nothing at all. All attempts I make, were unfinished. I was never able to finish anything at all! I felt like there are forces hindering me to do or complete anything, at all,in 2016 and the past years. It was crazy. You have no idea. But today, this year, I was in shocked when I learned I drew something in Jan 3, and was able to finish it weeks or a week after. And it was finished. I was never able to do that in the past years, even in simple drawings. Wow. The next drawing I will make will be the 5th. And I am going to share it with you when it's God, because it's going to Jesus holding a flower for you. I have promoted some of my arts and never been happier. You know, just instagram but I felt so free and happy. Like I have never felt before.
Confirmation pictures and screenshots seen in the succeeding days after the dream will follow and will be posted here. For now, I am on my computer, so I have to send it via the phone.
Explanation will also follow and some captions for explanation and description purposes. For now, that's it.
Til then!
Toodles!
Cheers to God! Follow Him and be happy with Him and in Him!
Love and excitement,
Jay
(Note and P.S.: Has been written out from heart flowing, I did not intend to edit it for proofreading it, yet, just wanting to type what is in my heart, free flowing. Will and may do it when things are clear already but for now, I want it unfiltered, raw and true to how I feel and how I may deliver it to you.
But will try to edit it later to make it more clearer, precise, accurate or easy to read and comprehend, some parts are redundant, it's okay, I'll leave some parts for it being genuine but will make minor edit for grammar and it being more understandable. Thank you.)
I should have blogged this on the 12th. But those days of delays have also proven the strength of the truth of the dream.
There were lots of confirmation which came on the day after the dream, the morning after, and the succeeding days.
Okay, so here's the dream.
I was sooo excited and happy I wasn't able to contain it. I could not contain it. I told someone about it, I hope its effect didn't change in my life.
When I woke up, I felt I received it in real life, that it's there, that I have it already when it was given in the dream, and I felt soooooo high like I could accomplish anything! Anything and whatever, whatever I put my hands to at all!!
In my dream I received a golden orb, it was a little more the size of the fist, something you could hold with your hand, but it's glow is brighter, about 150% of it's diameter.
In my my dream I received it, it was given, it was a provision God has given, the one the prophets and prophetess of today's time were talking about. They were talking about this season, this season of abundance and acceleration and help and destiny in 2017, in 2016. Preachers and prophets/prophetess like Lana Vawser, Dough Addison, Chuck Pierce, Jo Ellens Stevens, the Woman of Impact Ministries, etc., and the likes were talking about. (Another story of how I came to "follow them one by one and little by little in another post).
And when I received it, I flew up up in the sky, so so high I couldn't stop! It almost felt like I am a rocket being thrown and pushed through the air, even if I moderated or thinking of moderating my flight, it was rushing, it was rushing so so high I couldn't stop, like a force is pushing me upwards and taking me upwards higher. Higher than I have ever flew, seen or been to, or experienced. In my dreams before, in the past, I would fly but only to the height that I could or would want to, according to my control. This time, of all my dreams about flying in my life, this was the one where I could feel an uncontrollable force and energy pushing me upwards and taking me higher, I couldn't stop, I felt like a rocket being launched to the air to the moon, and it just keeps going, I couldn't control it, I couldn't moderate it. It was so high, no one has been there before. It took me places no one has ever been. Nobody has ever seen. Nobody has access to is was allowed to, or has been given provision to except to those, to the ones who have received those provision of orbs from God. That's what I understood in my dream. There were people who are able to fly there as well had been there or will be there or can or could go back and forth but those where the people who have been given or who also received the provision God has given to the people he promised for the season of increase, release, and abundance of dreams to happen that were held in the past. (Refer to the prophets' prophesies, I mentioned above).
I was in great awe, so so high about it. I felt so happy. I was toggling along flying here to there and going to places no one has ever been, it was such a wonderful feeling. You are at the edge of the atmosphere and no one has seen those places before, places of wonder and "things to happen." I don't know what that means but that's what I understood in my dream.
But in my dream, I also saw my partner. It's a current relationship I should be no longer attached with in the future and in this season. A partner I prayed I could be released from, to Jesus, and in 2016 I prayed so much about it, much has been a mistake and I have prayedand talked to and asked God for freedom, release, and to no longer be in bondage and to freely do things I should do and topartner with Him, God, in the season and for the rest of my life.It was timely that the ministers and prophets were talking about it, where I was making up my mind, where I made up my mind to make things happen already and one was when Lana Vawser was mentioning "This is your next Nexus Point" in one of her prophesies, where you are "made up" or have made up your mind and opportunities or God's provision is showing up or are here ready for you to receive it. Nexus Point. Wow, what a beautiful word prophesy and declaration.
But when I saw my partner, because he was there, in respect to him, I tried to take him where I could fly, I tried to take him to fly with me, to fly to the air, to places I've been to, in my flight. But as soon I was trying to, as I grabbed his hand, I could not fly!!! I could no longer fly! I was like, "how---, why can't I fly again when I have been able to before, how can I do this---" I tried but I couldn't take him anywhere, I tried to control my dream in my thoughts that I could fly and take him but I couldn't, it's just in my imagination. So I wasn't.
Part of the dream was, before that, was I could see the blue seas, and the blue green oceans while I am in the air. And I went down because my baby girl wanted to take a swim in the water. She was there and while she was trying to swim and enjoying the water (travel), there was a shark at the other end of a resort lagoon's cottage (at the edge of this lagoon was a resort or big cemented cottage with roofs from that of a hut, those you see in resorts), and the shark swam towards my baby girl and I went down to get her and warn her, the shark could walk not only swim, and it tried to get what I was holding, a phone or something, and it got bitten, the phone was bitten, it had a scratch on the edge. But we were able to climb through the big cemented cottage was able to carry my babygirl with me, only the phone got a scratch from the shark's bite. It seemed to have ran away after that, don't know where it's going or heading, back to the other side of the cottage.
And that was it. That was my dream.
When I woke up I could feel the force within me, feel like I could accomplish anything and that I am soaring high and I could finally do, could do it, finally! And I was doing things, I realized, that I haven't done before, in years, things that got held back in years, I was able to do in 12 days since January. As I checked my drawings, I made 4, and I was not able to make or finish anything at all before that, since 6 years! Wow, Nothing at all. All attempts I make, were unfinished. I was never able to finish anything at all! I felt like there are forces hindering me to do or complete anything, at all,in 2016 and the past years. It was crazy. You have no idea. But today, this year, I was in shocked when I learned I drew something in Jan 3, and was able to finish it weeks or a week after. And it was finished. I was never able to do that in the past years, even in simple drawings. Wow. The next drawing I will make will be the 5th. And I am going to share it with you when it's God, because it's going to Jesus holding a flower for you. I have promoted some of my arts and never been happier. You know, just instagram but I felt so free and happy. Like I have never felt before.
Confirmation pictures and screenshots seen in the succeeding days after the dream will follow and will be posted here. For now, I am on my computer, so I have to send it via the phone.
Explanation will also follow and some captions for explanation and description purposes. For now, that's it.
Til then!
Toodles!
Cheers to God! Follow Him and be happy with Him and in Him!
Love and excitement,
Jay
(Note and P.S.: Has been written out from heart flowing, I did not intend to edit it for proofreading it, yet, just wanting to type what is in my heart, free flowing. Will and may do it when things are clear already but for now, I want it unfiltered, raw and true to how I feel and how I may deliver it to you.
But will try to edit it later to make it more clearer, precise, accurate or easy to read and comprehend, some parts are redundant, it's okay, I'll leave some parts for it being genuine but will make minor edit for grammar and it being more understandable. Thank you.)
Tuesday, December 27, 2016
December 27, 2016
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Yesterday night when I closed my eyes, a thought in form of words flashed before me and the Title was "Build a Tower."
It was supposed to be a paragraph about a prophesy and I began to see the first sentence being laid out but then that's all I see. The thought was laid out in a way that it looks like it's one of those phrophesy in a prophetic FB Group called "Dry Bones Come Alive."
That's all I see.
I will take note of what it means in my life but I'm also in this season of having been ready to 'build a tower,' to build something in my life, to establish. Because the enemy has been pushing me over to directions that didn't boar fruit, via people's pressure over my life.
I could no longer depend on what people are going to tell me or their expectations of me. The start of November this year, I had a revelation and realization that I could no longer depend on what they want for me. I have to establish my own. A flood of realization came to me in that one single night and I was shocked that it was the first time I looked at it that way.
That's right. I have to established my own.
It was confirmed by a Sandi Krakowski's post on her facebook page, and I thought this was right.
Sunday, December 18, 2016
December 18, 2016
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My heart can't sit still and I just need to blog this out.
I don't want to forget some details like I did the last time but luckily I listed them in a notebook.
Something very very special happened today.
I dreamed about God. Again. This is the 5th time, I have.
(I will post the other stories here in another post.)
This time, I saw God the Father. Followed by choir of Angels singing. It was the most beautiful sound I've heard ever. But only in my dreams.
I just can't describe the feeling I got. It was relaxing, like a lullaby, and happy, just happy. There was pure joy.
(I hope I will be able to detail the dream as articulate as I can. (I am not a Native Speaker/Writer).
In my dream, I saw a massive ice floating in the water heading towards a river/canal-looking channel of the lake near the dry ground. I am not certain if it's an iceberg with a supersized submerged part, but in my dreams, I think it was not the case. The part that floats is not bigger than the hut we were staying in, a sort of a mid-family tropical Hawaiian house, situated in a lakeside area with snow mountains from afar.
It was the beginning of summer, just right after spring, it has a fresh-day feel to it. The air was not humid at all.
I soon realized there was another ice about the same size, looking really identical, heading towards the opening of the canal. I was alarmed to see that they might be colliding because we are so near the area. The ice collided towards each other and we had no time to run.
Flood came all over that little town island but it only lasted for a few minutes. No one was hurt although we were soaked in water for a few minutes. The water level came to the chest to just the level of my head, depending on one's height. It went as high as my head.
I was worried about my daughter but was glad to learn that she was alright right after that.
Then my father arrived home from Church and reported the water level went as high as his chest inside the church, but probably because he's way taller than me.
My mom with her sisters also came from strolling around the town and I saw they're clothes were wet as well but only as high as their chest. They were not that tall but probably that's the water level in the park/where they were strolling at.
This part is not so clear but it somehow suggested I was now suddenly dreaming in my dream. And in that dream, a guy was persuading me to tell something other than the truth, to bend the truth about something, about a particular issue. And it that dream it suggested, and I somehow know, that he was used by the Devil, like that of a representative or just someone used by him.
I thought to myself "Why would you want me to do that/say that, when it's not the right thing to say/not the truth?" but before I could reason out, suddenly God the Father entered my mind in a flash. In a sudden without realizing it, I closed my eyes and saw a big picture frame with an image in front of me. I immediately recognize that it was God the Father without a doubt. And I was shocked that it was Him actually who showed up, because usually it's Jesus revealing himself to people, but this one dream, it was God the Father. In the image He was an old man with long beard.
He uttered a strong and firm, powerfully shaking loud-enough but not deafening, one liner sentence. And as He was speaking it, I realized I was also speaking those words. When He's done, I involuntarily opened my eyes and saw that the one who was persuading me to "change the truth" was shocked when a weapon He aimed towards me blew up. I didn't realize he was actually aiming a weapon towards me. The weapon looked like an iron/gold plated small trumpet. But it exploded.
He was shocked when he learned it exploded when I was uttering words as I closed my eyes and he said "You blew it up? How did you do that?" I was about to explain but he was so shocked. And then I looked to my right and as I took a few steps towards it, I heard the Angels sing. They were singing praises, it was a Choir of them, many, like so many. But I didn't see them I just heard them sing. It was so nice and relaxing and happy I worshiped along with an Alleluia with them praising God as well as I raise my hand.
Then I woke up from that dream. And got back to the original dream. I was to explain to people that I dreamed about the Father Almighty, God the Father. But before I could share, everyone knew I made something explode. My name got quite popular and they were thankful that it exploded because no one has done it before.They were like celebrating. I think there was a parade of some sort as celebration by the town people, it wasn't clear.
But after that things begin to get nicer. Some people got jobs or promotion or blessings of some sort.
And I got to have my own blessing, too, or a job. I felt so happy.
When I Woke Up that Day:
That day, it felt weird. I was so happy and excited. The moment I opened my eyes, I was thinking of checking facebook to see or find confirmations from different prophetic ministries from people all over the world.
But I was not able to open my phone until later that day thought. I had to recharge the powers.
But tonight, as I was eating dinner with my fiance at the dinner table, He uttered a joke that was meant for laughter but probably, as it turned out, with a content of mockery in it. He jokingly said calling out his mother, in a loud voice, that we now have the same religion with an old woman related to them.
Before they could all laugh, his father continued the joke with a resounding comment. He was suggesting those who convert to Born Again Christianity would become crazy. He pointed out one relative of them became literally insane after converting to a Born Again denomination. And some of his aunts who has also converted got into coveting his father's share of properties and tried to take it from him. And so he then concluded that the relative mentioned in my fiance's joke will soon get crazy. Reasoned it will serve as "karma" for the wrath of God from turning away from Catholicism.
I don't want to say that there is a hidden suggestion that he is indirectly trying to conclude I will get crazy, too. From my description of it, he seemed angry while saying it, standing up for what He said, was fidgety going in and out of the house, as he was trying to pick up and continue on the argument while my fiance's mother and my fiance tried to reason not everyone will become ill, probably trying to defend me. They might've felt I was feeling a little embarrassed and mocked already.
Was I embarrassed? It would probably be not good to say I wasn't. I thought I was put in the spotlight and picked up on with a content of insult to the monologue while I tried not to look like a dog sitting still there.
The old woman who was compared to me was someone they see as a little goofy or less fortunate in status. Somehow suggesting I probably am as "stupid" as "her(?)" now, um, as they don't really think too highly of her.
It was intended for fun and you be the judge why. I'd probably hint why he'd say that and why his mom or family would be involved. The thing I wasn't expecting though was being picked up on as rowdy and loud as that with somehow an angry content that seemed to have intended to insult me and knock me down for a reason that was still puzzling to me.
Would you think he probably has hidden anger towards me?
I don't know. Let's see what happens next.
But the best part is, I get to choose how to react. And as I saw it happened in the past, God has favored my humility with his proofs of love and standing up and fighting for me. After all, I have the Father and son at my back. (Wink).
I hope you got inspired and whatever I published here, is just being honest of me. I am not perfect I just want to be honest and truthful about this and how I reacted.
Thank you and cheers to you!
I don't want to forget some details like I did the last time but luckily I listed them in a notebook.
Something very very special happened today.
I dreamed about God. Again. This is the 5th time, I have.
(I will post the other stories here in another post.)
This time, I saw God the Father. Followed by choir of Angels singing. It was the most beautiful sound I've heard ever. But only in my dreams.
I just can't describe the feeling I got. It was relaxing, like a lullaby, and happy, just happy. There was pure joy.
(I hope I will be able to detail the dream as articulate as I can. (I am not a Native Speaker/Writer).
In my dream, I saw a massive ice floating in the water heading towards a river/canal-looking channel of the lake near the dry ground. I am not certain if it's an iceberg with a supersized submerged part, but in my dreams, I think it was not the case. The part that floats is not bigger than the hut we were staying in, a sort of a mid-family tropical Hawaiian house, situated in a lakeside area with snow mountains from afar.
It was the beginning of summer, just right after spring, it has a fresh-day feel to it. The air was not humid at all.
I soon realized there was another ice about the same size, looking really identical, heading towards the opening of the canal. I was alarmed to see that they might be colliding because we are so near the area. The ice collided towards each other and we had no time to run.
Flood came all over that little town island but it only lasted for a few minutes. No one was hurt although we were soaked in water for a few minutes. The water level came to the chest to just the level of my head, depending on one's height. It went as high as my head.
I was worried about my daughter but was glad to learn that she was alright right after that.
Then my father arrived home from Church and reported the water level went as high as his chest inside the church, but probably because he's way taller than me.
My mom with her sisters also came from strolling around the town and I saw they're clothes were wet as well but only as high as their chest. They were not that tall but probably that's the water level in the park/where they were strolling at.
This part is not so clear but it somehow suggested I was now suddenly dreaming in my dream. And in that dream, a guy was persuading me to tell something other than the truth, to bend the truth about something, about a particular issue. And it that dream it suggested, and I somehow know, that he was used by the Devil, like that of a representative or just someone used by him.
I thought to myself "Why would you want me to do that/say that, when it's not the right thing to say/not the truth?" but before I could reason out, suddenly God the Father entered my mind in a flash. In a sudden without realizing it, I closed my eyes and saw a big picture frame with an image in front of me. I immediately recognize that it was God the Father without a doubt. And I was shocked that it was Him actually who showed up, because usually it's Jesus revealing himself to people, but this one dream, it was God the Father. In the image He was an old man with long beard.
He uttered a strong and firm, powerfully shaking loud-enough but not deafening, one liner sentence. And as He was speaking it, I realized I was also speaking those words. When He's done, I involuntarily opened my eyes and saw that the one who was persuading me to "change the truth" was shocked when a weapon He aimed towards me blew up. I didn't realize he was actually aiming a weapon towards me. The weapon looked like an iron/gold plated small trumpet. But it exploded.
He was shocked when he learned it exploded when I was uttering words as I closed my eyes and he said "You blew it up? How did you do that?" I was about to explain but he was so shocked. And then I looked to my right and as I took a few steps towards it, I heard the Angels sing. They were singing praises, it was a Choir of them, many, like so many. But I didn't see them I just heard them sing. It was so nice and relaxing and happy I worshiped along with an Alleluia with them praising God as well as I raise my hand.
Then I woke up from that dream. And got back to the original dream. I was to explain to people that I dreamed about the Father Almighty, God the Father. But before I could share, everyone knew I made something explode. My name got quite popular and they were thankful that it exploded because no one has done it before.They were like celebrating. I think there was a parade of some sort as celebration by the town people, it wasn't clear.
But after that things begin to get nicer. Some people got jobs or promotion or blessings of some sort.
And I got to have my own blessing, too, or a job. I felt so happy.
When I Woke Up that Day:
That day, it felt weird. I was so happy and excited. The moment I opened my eyes, I was thinking of checking facebook to see or find confirmations from different prophetic ministries from people all over the world.
But I was not able to open my phone until later that day thought. I had to recharge the powers.
But tonight, as I was eating dinner with my fiance at the dinner table, He uttered a joke that was meant for laughter but probably, as it turned out, with a content of mockery in it. He jokingly said calling out his mother, in a loud voice, that we now have the same religion with an old woman related to them.
Before they could all laugh, his father continued the joke with a resounding comment. He was suggesting those who convert to Born Again Christianity would become crazy. He pointed out one relative of them became literally insane after converting to a Born Again denomination. And some of his aunts who has also converted got into coveting his father's share of properties and tried to take it from him. And so he then concluded that the relative mentioned in my fiance's joke will soon get crazy. Reasoned it will serve as "karma" for the wrath of God from turning away from Catholicism.
I don't want to say that there is a hidden suggestion that he is indirectly trying to conclude I will get crazy, too. From my description of it, he seemed angry while saying it, standing up for what He said, was fidgety going in and out of the house, as he was trying to pick up and continue on the argument while my fiance's mother and my fiance tried to reason not everyone will become ill, probably trying to defend me. They might've felt I was feeling a little embarrassed and mocked already.
Was I embarrassed? It would probably be not good to say I wasn't. I thought I was put in the spotlight and picked up on with a content of insult to the monologue while I tried not to look like a dog sitting still there.
The old woman who was compared to me was someone they see as a little goofy or less fortunate in status. Somehow suggesting I probably am as "stupid" as "her(?)" now, um, as they don't really think too highly of her.
It was intended for fun and you be the judge why. I'd probably hint why he'd say that and why his mom or family would be involved. The thing I wasn't expecting though was being picked up on as rowdy and loud as that with somehow an angry content that seemed to have intended to insult me and knock me down for a reason that was still puzzling to me.
Would you think he probably has hidden anger towards me?
I don't know. Let's see what happens next.
But the best part is, I get to choose how to react. And as I saw it happened in the past, God has favored my humility with his proofs of love and standing up and fighting for me. After all, I have the Father and son at my back. (Wink).
I hope you got inspired and whatever I published here, is just being honest of me. I am not perfect I just want to be honest and truthful about this and how I reacted.
Thank you and cheers to you!